Les voyages (et les langues) forment la jeunesse

Il y a cinq ans, quand j’étais en première au lycée (à Pune en Inde), j’ai eu le choix d’apprendre une langue étrangère : soit l’allemand soit le français. J’ai choisi ce dernier sans beaucoup réfléchir, sans savoir ce que l’avenir me réservait.

L’année suivante, juste après mon bac en avril 2017, j’ai eu la chance de venir en France pendant un mois en tant qu’étudiante en échange (grâce au partenariat de mon lycée avec deux lycées français à Lannion et à Mennecy). Cette immersion m’a permis d’améliorer mon français et de vivre la culture française avec mes deux correspondantes et familles d’accueil.

Ces merveilleux moments passés pendant l’échange m’ont donné envie de mieux connaître la France, sa langue, sa culture et ses gens. C’est pourquoi j’ai commencé à suivre des cours de français à l’Alliance Française de Pune parallèlement à ma licence en sciences économiques.

Le français m’a tellement plu que j’ai décidé de devenir enseignante de français. Afin d’acquérir de l’expérience dans le domaine d’enseignement, j’ai postulé pour le programme d’assistanat du Centre International d’Études Pédagogiques (CIEP) avant de faire mes études supérieures. Quelques mois plus tard, j’ai su que j’étais affectée dans le lycée Paul Sérusier à Carhaix-Plouguer en tant qu’assistante d’anglais.

Cela fait déjà quatre mois que je travaille dans ce lycée. Avec les professeurs chaleureux, les élèves adorables et le personnel sympathique, je ne vois pas le temps passer ! Quelle belle chance d’avoir cette opportunité professionnelle d’enseignement d’anglais aux Français.es en partageant ma culture indienne !

L’apprentissage du français m’a complètement changé la vie ; au niveau personnel autant qu’au niveau professionnel. L’échange m’a rendue plus expressive, plus ouverte aux autres. L’assistanat me rend plus responsable, plus indépendante. Tout ça parce que j’ai choisi le français au hasard au lycée il y cinq ans. Donc, apprenez de nouvelles langues, apprenez de nouvelles choses, ça vous ouvrira l’esprit, ça vous ouvrira le monde !

– Khushi Goyal

Unlearning Insecurities

It took me a lot of courage to write what you’re about to read right now; as it throws light on one of the biggest insecurities that I’ve had since childhood. But I thought that this was something that needed to be shared and talked about, because we’ve all been through this in one way or the other and have been affected by it at some point in our lives.

There have been multiple instances where people, including my friends, family, relatives, cousins or even acquaintances, have commented on my acne, thin hair, bald spot or belly. Be it unintentional jokes, unsolicited advice or taunts, the remarks on my looks and body have affected me at a psychological level since I was a school-going girl, occasionally leading to emotional outbursts and breakdowns; taking a toll on my self-confidence and self-esteem.

No matter how much I try to forget these comments, they tend to come back to me again and again, with more and more people adding on to them. “Are you undergoing a treatment for acne”, “You’ve got so many pimples! Is this a reaction to something?”, “You’ve got such thin hair with so less volume”, “You’ve put on weight, haven’t you?”… Constantly hearing judgemental statements such as these has always been making me so self-conscious about my appearance in whatever I do, whenever I speak and wherever I go.

Although the awareness about effects of appearance and body shaming is increasing day by day, it’s not enough. I feel that sometimes people just don’t realise how harshly this might affect someone and for how long this might stay with them. They say that the jokes are all in good humour or that they are just concerned and are thus sharing their opinions and advices, but only those who are at the receiving end of it know how frequently they have to deal with such unsought commentary every single day.

Despite making conscious efforts to not let someone else’s view determine my sense of beauty, I cannot help but succumb to it sometimes. But that does not stop me from trying. I believe that there are always going to be people who point out your “imperfections”, but you need to remind yourself time and again that their opinions simply do not matter, because they are just focusing on what you look like, and not what you are or what you do.

We are all insecure about something or the other, and most of the times it’s because people make us think that we should be insecure about it, by mocking us or by trying to give us remedies to look better. But try not to let people’s judgements make you insecure about anything. I know it’s easier said than done. So, here’s another thing you can do – try not to be that person; a person who points out or jokes about certain aspects of someone’s appearance. There are already many people who do that. So, the least you could do is to not be one of them, isn’t it?

-Khushi Goyal

Addressing the Avoided

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A few days back, for the first time ever, I had a moderate level anxiety attack. Heavy breathing, heart palpitations, uncontrollable tears… I could actually hear my heartbeats, while falling short of breath. Fortunately, this happened when my mother was there by my side; so she helped me calm down. However, those few minutes of perturbation served as a warning sign to address what I had been avoiding for long – my emotions.

The past few weeks have been difficult for all of us. We are all confined to our homes, confronting the worst possible nightmare. Seeing the things we had planned falling apart; all while feeling miserable and helpless about the current situation. This is what many of us are going through, including me. All my plans for this year seem to be going haywire. The uncertainty of the future and the bleak chances of it ameliorating anytime soon are making it worse. In order to avoid letting our feelings overpower us during these tough times, we try to avoid them. And that’s where we go wrong. We bottle up all those emotions and feelings, only for them to come out in the form of an emotional meltdown later on.

A couple of months back, I had attended a session on dealing with emotions in SP College. The takeaways from that small session helped me address this issue and I reckon it could help others as well. We tend to keep away from emotions such as frustration, anger, sadness, loneliness, confusion, envy, fear, etc; considering them to be bad or negative. However, this is where the problem lies. We need to change our perspective regarding them. These kinds of emotions are not bad or negative in any way, and you shouldn’t be ashamed for feeling them. These emotions are just unpleasant or uncomfortable, because of the way they make you feel.

Emotions are colours to what we feel. Since these emotions are dull, we steer away from them. We do anything possible to not let our mind’s canvas be painted by sombre sentiments. For this, we resort to binge-watching or gaming for hours together; we feel that eating our favourite dish or a cup of our favourite ice-cream or just sleeping will make things better; we do everything but what is actually needed – sitting down, taking a deep breath and making ourselves aware of what exactly we are going through. After all, it’s about awareness, not avoidance.

“The most valuable commodity in times of crisis is clarity.”

Capt Raghu Raman

It is essential to be aware of what we’re feeling and then paying heed to it. It is the most important step and the most difficult one as well. We sometimes run away from such emotions by thinking “why am I feeling this way?” or “I shouldn’t be feeling this way.” But remember, address the ‘what’ first and then the ‘whys’. First be aware of what colours are being painted in your mind and heart; and accept them, and more importantly accept yourself for painting them. Don’t run away from them. Once you are aware of them, it will be a great degree easier to answer the ‘whys’. And once those ‘whys’ are answered, you will definitely have an idea as to how to deal with them.

So here’s what you can do in such situations. Pen down what you’re feeling and why you’re feeling that way. Then think of the possible ways in which you can address and overcome them. I personally sat down and thought of all the things that I can do if things don’t go as I had them planned. Trust me, once you get down to do it, you will certainly find feasible solutions to resolve your issues. I could do it, and so can you. Just remember to take a few deep breaths and not be harsh on yourself. It’s not as difficult as you think. And it’s definitely much better than living in the bubble of avoidance.

Khushi Goyal

An Uneasy Choice

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Rising sea levels, melting ice caps, increased global temperature, extreme weather events, species extinction; the issue of climate change has unequivocally aggravated. Climate change is a global concern affecting us at an international, national, local and individual level; hence the dire need to take effective, robust actions.

Climate change mitigation can be accomplished in two ways. Firstly by curbing the emission of greenhouse gases (especially carbon dioxide, methane and nitrous oxide). Secondly by removing the already existing greenhouse gases (GHGs) from the atmosphere. While the latter can be effectuated through forest regeneration and creation of carbon sinks, the former needs to be addressed diligently at various levels.

Countries worldwide ought to comply to the objectives and obligations set forth by international treaties such as UNFCCC, Kyoto Protocol or more recently the Paris Agreement in order to tackle the matter in hand comprehensively. Additionally, at a national scale, a transformational shift towards low-emission sustainable development along with sound policy framework and direction must be the chief concern. Moreover, systemizing waste management, adopting suitable business policies and practices, advocating electric transportation technology and energy efficient buildings, promoting private sector engagement and greening urban areas are other key measures that shall be undertaken to combat the climate crisis.

Besides, at an individual level, few strategies commonly popularized are: less plastic usage, proper waste segregation, judicious use of water and energy, greater application of renewable energies, switching to public transport, car pooling, practicing the 3 R’s (reduce, reuse, recycle) and the like. However, the solution which I am about to propose requires a paradigm shift in people’s lifestyle; more precisely in their dietary habits.

A report by Worldwatch Institute states that animal agriculture (raising and killing animals for food) is responsible for 51% of the total GHGs emissions, 30% of the world’s water consumption, 45% of the earth’s land use and 91% of the Brazilian Amazon destruction. Thus, the meat and dairy industry, as confirmed by the UN, is the leading cause of deforestation, habitat and rainforest destruction, ocean dead zones, species extinction and water degradation. In other words, it is one of the prime causes of environmental devastation. This is why embracing a vegan lifestyle becomes the need of the hour.

Veganism essentially refers to the exclusion of all animal products (be it for food, clothing or entertainment) due to ethical, environmental and health related reasons. It needs to be emphasized, however, that transitioning to a vegan diet does not necessarily imply complete elimination of dairy products. It simply refers to substituting them with plant-based products such as soy and almond milk, vegan cheese, butter, ice-cream and cake. Nowadays, even vegan meat is available in the market!

According to surveys, such kind of a plant-based diet saves approximately 1100 gallons of water (roughly equal to 3.5 months of showering), 45 pounds of grains, 30 square feet of forest, 10 pounds of carbon dioxide and an animal’s life per day (Source : ‘Cowspiracy’, Netflix). There’s indeed more to climate change than just fossil fuels! All of us, including major environmental organizations, have conveniently ignored this solution since it encompasses a massive change in our lifestyle, mentality and choices, while neglecting that it contributes tremendously to combat climate change. After all, we know what to do, we know why to do it, we know how to do it, we just have to choose to do it.

-Khushi Goyal

PS: This essay won the 1st prize in a competition organised by the Language Services Bureau, Pune; the topic of which was “How to mitigate Climate Change?”

Ma déclaration solennelle

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Il était une fois où j’étais connue comme étant la plus belle langue du monde. Oui, il était une fois où vous étiez fiers de moi. Où vous n’aimiez que moi. Ah ! Il était une fois ! Toutefois, tout au long du siècle, ma vie a changée. Elle a été bouleversée. Je me sens en danger. Puisque vous me trompez. Oui, vous me trompez ! Vous trompez la plus belle langue du monde avec la lingua franca du monde !

J’étais votre amour, mais l’anglais est devenu votre amant. Chaque moment où vous me rejetez en le caressant, j’ai mal au cœur. Chaque moment où vous me rejetez en l’embrassant,  j’ai mal au cœur. Ne vous enorgueillissiez-vous pas de ma pureté ? Pourquoi alors c’est vous qui me rendez impure ? Ne m’aimiez-vous pas de tout cœur ? Pourquoi alors c’est vous qui vous avérez infidèles ?

L’anglais était censé être votre ami. Un ami qui vous ouvre de nouvelles portes. Un ami qui s’ajoute à vos forces. Pourquoi cet ami, qu’apparemment vous détestiez, est-il devenu votre nouvel amour ainsi que votre force ?! Pourquoi moi, qui étais auparavant votre grande fierté, suis-je devenu votre ancien amour ainsi que votre faiblesse ?!

Ce qui me blesse, en outre, ce sont les excuses que vous me donnez pour justifier votre infidélité. Vous me dites que c’est « cool ». Vous me dites que c’est « fun ». Vous me dites que c’est « swagg ». Arrêtez ( non, pas « stoppez », s’il vous plaît ) ces bêtises ! Ne comprenez-vous pas que votre nouveau « crush » me tue au fur et à mesure ? Ne comprenez-vous pas que je ne veux pas être « likée », que je veux justement être aimée ?

Un amour éternel. Est-ce vraiment beaucoup demander ? Vous, surtout les jeunes, répondez-moi ! Mon grand répertoire de l’affection qui prend des formes diverses ( des mots, des expressions, des citations ), n’est-il pas suffisant ? N’est-il pas assez complet ? Ne suis-je plus belle ? Ne suis-je plus votre fierté ? Vous les jeunes, répondez-moi ! Ah ! Combien cette indifférence me fait mal ! Combien cela m’affecte de ne plus être la plus belle langue du monde !

-Khushi Goyal